WILL BE FLYING IN 8HOURS TIME!
but...
duno leh feel so not secure.
left my nyp allication stuff not done at all.
well did medical checkup only.
come back mus rush like siao~
alrighto,
shall meet up with all my friends aft my HK trip!
YAY!

ohyah,
thanks Mr pokka!

HAHAHAHHAHA
LOLLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOL~

GOING FOR MACS BREAKFAST NOW~!

阿拉叭嗶擂叭拉阿嚕叭拉嗶

tmr will b week 1 day 3!
wapiang there's so much stuff to do!
esp the enrolment thing.
cnt believe i will b going hk w/o completing all these application.
BO BIAN AHHHHHHHHH~
mon need to call and tell them if they can extent thw dates for me.
omg omg omg luh..
and i will need to pay FIRST before i accept their offer.
=.=
$1148.75 kay..
then need go down UOB somemore!
OH tday went to have my body checkup.
waited 10 000 years for my turn can!
went for X ray, height and weight, urine test, check eyes and BLOOD TEST.
i've never had any blood test before uh!
was SUPER nervous!
but thn it turn out to be okok lor.
not very pain luh.
SUAN SUAN feeling. HAHA.
the nurses vey funny =D
okay my results will b our on wed.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT!?
i'm flying on wed!
WTF!
i cnt know e results!
@#$!@$@
alright then i will need to send in mail and stuff over when i reach S'pore which is on sat.
SADLY i will only arrive at night so sun thn can send.
BUT if i send by mail will be too late! cus postman dun work on SUN!
and MON IS THE DATELINE!
so i need to bring all the doc PERSONALL DOWN to nyp on mon...
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
and so, i will need to email in and ask em to extent mt dateline..
i dun why they cant jus cnfm wih me over the phone.
MUS EMAIL THEN CAN!
WALAU EH!
WHAT'S THIS MAN!!
nvm nvm as long as i can go in to my desired course all this rubbish is nth~

jus came home from SATA.
realise that i may not pass the checkup cus of some family history and stuff.
i was so shock when my mum told me uh.
walau if i nv pass jus simply means that i cnt go healthcare sector ald.
how...
super sian.

done with week1 day2 =DD
feels DAMN SHIOK AHHHHH!
ok,
i need to book appt for my body checkup before my hk trip.
i hope i can go with the rest..
WE WILL GO NYP TGT TGT YAH!!!

WEEK 1 DAY2 staring in 5 mins time!
more pull ups, more push ups, more abdominal muscle training.
WHEEEEEEE~

"Normal has always felt like a lie to me, a too-tight sweater we force ourselves to wear. Normal has never been too kind to women, to children, or people of color, people mired in poverty, anyone different in any way. Normal is good for no one, really. "

urber full,
urber tired.
but so full how to sleep?!
walau...
so full.
so so so full...
oh week1 day1 postpone to tmr.
weather wasn't on my side tday.
i will wake up EARLY TMR!
YAWNS...
how...
cnt sleep..

WEEK1 DAY1

i think i need to post a challenge to myself or sth.
like set a target to motivate myself to go work out.
ok.
tmr morning i'm gona wakey early.
run 2.4,
do 50 pull up thing from that funny machine.
20 push up again from some funny machine.
25 sit ups.
so i will work out 3days per week.
by week 6 i hope i can run FASTER and do MORE sit ups,push ups and pull ups!
\m/

I WILL WAKE UP EARLY TMR!

Truth

you can close your eyes to the things you don’t want to see,
but you can’t close your heart to the things you don’t want to feel.

多想再叫您一声阿嬷。

在小的时候我的阿嬷对我最好
所有最好的东西都会留给我
她还常常带我到幼稚园看人在游玩
有人在玩办家家酒..
还有人在玩捉迷藏的游戏.
她常常叮咛我将来一定要好好的念书
别等到长大像父亲一样没什麼成就
在当时的我完全听不懂
阿嬷您到底是在说些什么
长大懂事后我才知到她的话是什麼意思
我会把您说的话一直一直牢记在心底
想起一切一切的过去
常常使人难以忘却
时间一分一秒的流逝
在我的心里常常想起您
阿嬷您现在在那儿
我的呼唤您可有听见
我的认真与我的成功您看见了吗
我的呼唤您知道吗
您现在过的好吗
身旁有人在照顾您吗
希望来生可以再让您疼惜
当您永远的孙子
再呼唤您一声阿嬷

Life is unpredictable

He was a guai guai boy boy in class.
very good in maths.
very easy paiseh, face will red kind.
he love to rap with husayn.
and was in St John if i rmb correctly.
though i wasnt so close to him but he was my classmate for 4 yrs.
i will rmb him as the studious boy, always sitting at the corner of the class.
rest in peace Anselmor...

mummy,
if you could stop doing things that make my life miserable i would really appreciate it.
i'm thinking if i should tell you how i feel.
hate bringing this issue up.
but i know if i don't,
you will con't doing wadever idiotic things you are doing.
mum, i 19 liao let me decide how i wana lead my life can?
you are making my life damn 辛苦 and 难过。
so should i talk to you about this or not.
to tell or not to tell...

A fact of life: After Mon and Tue even the calender says W T F...

HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH~

forward to 0.35
jus watch and listen.
LISTEN.

tell me i will still have this reaction.
告诉我一切是假的。

寄生虫

“他好我就好，但是我在哪里？”- 陳怡文

Viewers' Choice 2010

http://www.mediacorp.com.sg/viewerschoice2009/local06.htm

GO WATCH! few sec nia~
and everytime i hear/see tht adv i will XIA DAO.
"灯泡在那里？"
ALWAYS sounded like "燕芬在那里？"
WALAU.
i always tio SHOCK.
and i feel so damn stupid after that.
=.=
hahahhahahaha!

我有健康又浓密的头发！
i use 头与肩膀.
AHAHAHHA!
okay,
zao liao~

this is Blue, the BABE.















this is Magenta, the DUDE.

majenta is a BOY. Blue is a GIRL.
The point of them doing that was to show little boys and girls that colour doesnt belong to a gender.
Meaning, pink isnt only for girls and blue isnt only for boys.

HAHAHAHHAHA!
interesting right??
i always thought blue is a boyboy~
AHHA!
so, 迷底已经揭开了！

saw her at NUS
SHE IS REALLY PRETTY LOR!
SERIOUSLY.

after ytd night,
i totally felt damn freaking disgusted?
ohyah and super disappointed?
i was like EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW, FREAKING GO AWAY!
wapiang.
so things have always been like that right?
i should have know it earlier luh!
i was sooooooooo wrong about it.
all those are fucking excuses.
wapiang.
forget, sleeping and wadever.
so it's always selective.
ALWAYS.
so wad?
i'm jus a piece of dried leaf right?
you only attend to all the pretty green leaves that hang on you.
fuck!
always tell myself to ignore wad the others said,
but i realise it's all freaking ture???!!!
disappointing and disgusting!
really wonder, really really really wonder if wad you said are allllll true.
you used to b the one whom i used to respect, admire and everything.
but i', doubting if wadever you portrayed are jus....
fake.
i seriously wonder.

i didn't wana care.
i didn't wana know.
i don't wana know anything related.
it makes me pissy?
accumulated feelings.
cannot take it man.
i felt used all the time?
i felt so dumb and stupid and everything?
i like the way i am now.
away from all those shit.

Androgyny

HAHAHAHA!
so cute right!~
(err.. i thot was cute)
=B

REALITY OR NOT!

ST JAMES POWERHOUSE?????
ME?
THERE?
HAHHAHA!
sth exciting is coming up!!!!!!
快乐无边yo~

and again,
my phone didn't ring.
shall stop waiting and go to sleeeeeeeeep.
love teddy and hippo =D

Adam Lambert 帅到~~~~~~~~~~~~
*FAINTS*

duper tired.
hope i dun lose my temper later.

met up with beat to talk crap talk fish talk sotong =D
saw ten thousand kites tday sia~
AND my perspective has broaden by understanding how cai tao kueh can look like vomit!
AND i explained in great details to beat how jap avoid dog shit on pavement!
woah, wad a fruitful afternoon sia~

okay,
cast aside all these happy stuff.
i'm utterly disappointed.
all the respect, all the 仰慕 etc
all gone.
or maybe i think too highly of you in the past?
everything is soooooooo fake?
i'm not angry or wad.
jus disappointed.
dun wana hear anything bout you or anything related to you.
cus i dun wan to be even more disappointed with you.
not gona bug you with anything lor.
not my biz.
not my problem.
我干嘛要担心？
i dun wan to unds you anymore.
so scary.
damn scary lor..
walau.

LASTLY,
to my dearest nv peng you,

You fought your way up to the wall,
but you haven't gone past at all.
While gazing with tear filled eyes,
you just can't help but ask why?
If trying hard is what it takes,
then why does it feel like a mistake?
The world has taken its side
you just wanna run away and hide.

It's tough, there's no one to turn to,
I hear screaming inside you.
Feels like hell's all you've been through,
hell's all you've been through.

Hold on,
don't stop your breathing.
I see your dreams and I feel them too.
Hold on,
don't lose your faith,
I know you can't break,
I'm hoping and praying for you.

不会这么笨.
又不是 my buisness~

HAHAHA!
i wana go physio physio physio!
be a small doc (actually is some allied health care person)
HAHHA!~
kinda excited.
tho ppl say like wasted why go nyp.
BUT, i need to emphasize that...
I　GO IN CAUSE OF PASSION.
I GO IN WITH QUITE GOOD GRADES.
NOT CMI KAY~~~~
HAHHAAH!

i'm nearer to my dreams,
can wear 医生袍 SOON!
i hope...
JINGYUAN i've been nagging to your for a few years!!! BUT NOW WE CAN WEAR TGT TGT!
=DD
YAYYYYYYYY!!!

and i suddenly rmb what minmin mum say about my handwritting and wad job i will take up in future.
mayb it's half true siaaa~~~~~
minmin! tell aunty 摆地摊!
HAHHHAH!

这两年来得努力是值得的.
虽然不是str8 As or wad.
可是，我挺满意了。
contented.
感谢ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｗｈｏ　ａｃｃｏｍｐａｎｉｅｄ　ｔｈｏ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｗｈｏｌｅ　ｊｏｕｎｅｙ．
也要感谢阿嬷的保佑。
阿嬷，您看到了吗？

hilarious!
and i'm going kuku over cathy!
WHOO~~


CATHY CATHY CATHY!~

shutup.
you are getting your result tmr!
so high for what!
ass.
T.T
mummy~~~~~~

阿嬷．

你不在　當我最需要愛　你卻不在
無盡等待像獨白的難挨
你不在　高興還是悲哀　你都不在
我受了傷在偷偷好起來　但你不在～

你已走了大概两个月，
但对您的思念还是一样，
不曾改变。
昨晚，
突然好想您。
想到您每次叫我的那把声音，
想到您看４Ｄ的样子，
想您每次看到我，都会问我的问题
“考试考完了吗？”
“成绩好吗？”
“我告诉我的朋友，　我两个孙很厉害！读书很聪明！以后会赚十千块！”

我也很怀念一回到家，忘记带钥匙时您每次都帮我开门。
第一句话就会说　“回来了啊？”
当您病重，不能行走，不能帮我开门时你就会大声地问　“你是谁？＂
我就会说　＂我是坏人～”

还记得您病重时，
你爱叫我帮你那东西，
做完了就会说　“谢谢，byebye"
我更想念当您需要上下床/沙发时，
您紧紧地握着我的手臂的感觉。
还有您每次都会帮我拜拜，
祈求申明保佑我考试考好成绩。
可是，
拿成绩没有阿嬷为我上香拜拜了。。。
也不懂阿嬷知道我星期五那成绩吗？
如果阿嬷知道， 一定会尽全力保佑我顺顺利利，考好成绩。
我知道阿嬷一定会在一旁默默的保佑我。。。

阿嬷对于您一切,我一点也没忘.
我很想您.
每次想到您,眼泪就会不禁地掉了下来.
很没用吧?。。。

阿嬷，在上面要记得有空往下看一看我.
i promise to do you proud.
i promise.

曾经在我眼前却又消失不见，
我爱你快回到我身边~

i feel sick.
horrible feeling.
feeling slightly breathless.
=((

nway, i think paperxtress scam my $$
why m i always the victim of all these crap?
fuck those asshole blogshops.
my $$.................
not that i earn 10bucks per hour kay..
i dun earn any..
T.T
my $$..................
*more breathless*