i am a ZE.

why must we be stereotyped?
why mus ppl be categorized?
i guess this is the first time i'm talking about this, but i'm seriously TROUBLED AND IRRITATED.
okay,
this is wad happened today (actually not only tday, ALOT OF DAYS)
i was in the toilet and an aunty came up tto me and said OHMYGOD YOU ARE A FEMALE?
like wtf, yah i am.
WASSUP MAN~

like i know i dress like guys,
im comfortable that way, TOTALLY.
as in i dun get why mus there be this kind of distinction.
like why girls MUS WEAR DRESS,
why girls MUS BEHAVE A CERTAIN MANNER?
WHY GIRLS CANT HATE PINK?
WHY GIRLS MUST WEAR CERTAIN CLOTHES ONLY?
WHY MUST GIRLS HAVE BIG BOOBS!
i think it's dumb.
seriously.
i admit that when ppl call me AHGIRL! or XIAO JIE, i feel comforted, happy.
they know i'm a GIRL. i will be like thanks man!
but when ppl call me SIR, AH BOY! i will be like okay~ this is interesting. petty cool~~
but why? like cant we have a gender in between?
like there's gays lesbians and bisexuals.
cant we have males females and....
maybe another gender called ZE?
i duno.
I’m someone in between that no one really has a name for.
and WHY!! like from the what i dress ppl named me bunk, butch?
i dun need that kind of names, labels, STEREOTYPES.
i feel SICK!
it's not that i dun face the reality or wadever.
it's jus soooo irritating to be classified under a group that you dun feel comfortable in!
WAPIANG.
cant we jus choose the best in both genders and mix it to become a new one?
i totally think i am too masculine to be female
and too feminine to be male.
so where should i stand??
or i dun even belong to anywhere?
BUT STILL, i am happy with who i am now, how i behave, how i dress and everything.
not a single one is gona change me.
not even my family.
hello! i belong to a gender in between both!
GET IT?!
and if you dun get it and think it's sick then kay thanks bye, you need not accept me.
and to my family,
i can listen and obey to every single words you say.
but to this, i'm better off this way and i will stick to it.
i'm old enough to decide how i wana dress/behave.
i want it this way.
BUT IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT I'M A LESBIAN!
WALAU EH, another BIG ISSUE.
I'M NOT A LESBIAN FOR NOW.
=.=

mum,i hope u will unds.
i will always be your daughter unless you dun wanna accept the way i am.
i know you expect me to be like some other girls outside that wear dress, put on make up and have big boobs.
i'm sorry that i've never reached your expectations and i'm never like sis.
she's always perfect and stuff. i know.
and i'm also not like other girls out there.
but if i forced myself to reach your expectations, i will be making my own life miserable.
i'm jus slightly diff.
can you pls accept the way i am?
and yes, i love you.
i always do.
i jus truely hope you could unds me a little more.
jus a lil more will do.


and this is the yanfen that everyone should know.
accept the way i am.