ky mak and mark really got me thinking.
thinking of wad i really wana be.
how i really feel everyday.
i'm totally happy and proud of what they choose to do and wad they choose to be.
and mayb i will wana b like them one of these days.

world is never fair.
we are not given wad we want or desire.
most of the time we are not allowed to choose.
we say life is so called destined/fated to be the way it is.
but,
they decide to take on this tough journey,
and wad they wana b.
and mayb that's wad i wana b...

they have gone that far,
exp so much, and of course suffer alot.
but,
at least they are happy and satisfied with themselves.
they are happy with who they are everyday.
they live with pride and dignity,
they never regret the life that they have chosen for themselves.

it's a game.
a game that may cause them to lose wadever they have.
their family, friends, wealth, jobs and future.
but the fact that they choose to risk all these in exchange for a life that they really want, makes me respect them alot. like hell lot.

i see them as happy souls now.
totally different from who they were in the past.
they lead the kind of life that i want but never dare to lead.
mayb in the future,
say 3 yrs? 4yrs?
i will choose the path they had chosen.
and play the game that they have won.
by then i will be in paradise,
taking everything by my stride and living in dignity and pride.
i may be poor, homeless, friend-less and everything by then.
but at least,
i'm finally who i always wanted to be.

i hope that day will happen.
but,
事情如果那么简单那就好了...