got my nus acceptance letter =)

我相信大家都会有很想得到的东西。
但是，当你的到时，你会赫然发现原来你不能负荷种种的压力或挑战。
你就会发现梦想和现实真的有一定的差别。
being a PT is sort of my ambition.
esp aft my ahma incident.
i wana help ppl,
wan a job tht can interact with ppl,
wan a job that i really love.
i gave up going uni and chose this path.
not like it's something noble.
but, it's an opportunity cost.
well it's week 2 in nyp.
i kinda realise tht things weren't so easy.
i mean ive knew it earlier but when you really start to sit in lec and prac which you dun unds, O.O there.
you feel shitty.
and yes i feel shitty.
doubting if i am capable enough to cont',
doubting if i can cope with wadever is coming on.

i suck in prac,
i suck in human anatomy.
i cnt rmb terms,
i cnt recognise bones or palpate properly.
i cnt even rmb those terms that are taught in lec ytd!
i am this stupid idiot in param lesson asking ppl what is this and that.
i feel dumb.

i know ppl will say AIYA 2ns WEEK NIA! EVERYONE LIDAT ONE!
i tell you. you are wrong.
i duno, mayb i'm always inferior, always no confi or wadever.
but i'm seriously doubting myself if i can manage everything.
3yrs of pt stuff.
and it's sth so specialised.
nus FASS and ntu econs suddenly sound appealing to me.
haha..

tmr i have no sch.
wanted to chill out jc friends but realise they are all busy.
i've got alot to tell them.
but i guess slowly when we have our own things to be busy with,
we all will jus drift.
haha..
hope everyone is doing fine with their own stuff.
i shall stop grumbling and start on sth serious.
like sleeping.
( ultimate frisbee was fun =D)